RAWR

The worst thing that can ever happen as you are trying to sleep, is to think about food. Guess what i thought of last night -- St Nick's Orange Bowl. OMG i wanted to stab myself. Because 1) when i go back its definitely not going to be there 2) i cannot reproduce it because i dont know what he uses to make the soup! 3) its going to be 7 more months EVEN IF i did went back. -_-"

DAMNIT.

On food, i came across a GUIDE ON HOW YOU CAN EAT BUFFETS TO MAKE UR MONEY'S WORTH:

http://eatingtheroad.wordpress.com/2009/11/09/the-all-inclusive-all-you-can-eat-buffet-guide/

On The economist. Haha. I wouldnt think anyone would invent such a guide.. But come to think of it, there's a GUY who created a guide on HOW TO CREATE A CLEAVAGE WITH NUDE BRAS circulating in facebook, why should i be surprised to find a guide on how to prepare for Buffets? O.O"""" If ure curious to see that vid btw (which i couldnt stand 10s of..) you might want to be friends with J.ing M.ing C.hew . LOL. Im sure u can you tube it :) who knows what pr0n vids u might chance upon. lol.

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/video/video.php?v=1144423894097&ref=mf

if ure lucky it'd work.

Slacking with all my might before my next lab comes in! more tests and exams coming up..

From Professor P. whose lectures are a breeze, in the sense that u get a hell lot of info thrown at you and he gives u 0.1s to digest it and moves on to the next. i am ???? in class and have yet the time to go through the material properly. Not that his tutorial solutions are extremely helpful either but.. here's what i originally wanted to post:


Looking at the solutions before attempting VERY SERIOUSLY to solve the questions might give you the impression that you can solve the exercises [and that therefore you would be able to solve them in an exam], while actually the only thing you might be able to do is to follow the solution [without necessearily being able to have come up with it]. So in your own interest, do not fool yourself - have a decent go at solving the problems before looking at the solutions. If you find you consistently need to look at the solutions before solving an exercise, you should be concerned and seek some help.

I SHOULD BE CONCERNED AND SEEK SOME HELP.

im still stuck at tutorial 2 question 3b, because there's 12 integration terms (not counting internally created ones) to do and i am too @_@OMGWTFBBQ to do it. (when he has finished tutorial 3, his course, and having a progress test this thursday.)

I AM SO DEAD.

Katakana test next monday. It doesnt help that japanese pronounces things strangely!! Hyde park(pronounced as hide park) becomes HA-i-DO-PAA-KU but this is rather normal. Imagine Oxford street or Chinatown.

OKK-U-SU-FU-o-DO SU-TO-RII-TO

CHA-I-NA-TA-U-N

saveee meeee.

/ends rant.

my room is freezinggg.

Let's start with a picture taken in Feb 2008 when london experienced snow.


The remnants of autumn being buried by winter.

Somehow i felt a tinge of sadness looking at this photo. Wonder if i felt that when i took this photo. But it's like the next in thing replacing the "miss" fashion. New replaced with Old, simply put.

Today i thought to myself. I feel that people saying that they are unable to express their appreciation/emotions/love are just giving EXCUSES to do less for their partners/parents/friends etc.

What's your take?

Sure i agree with the fact that there are some who are awkward with showing their internal feelings, but even the world's most awkward man will be able to show some form of appreciation at the end of the day. Saying you are not good at expression just makes it a self fulfilling prophecy, except that it's more of a "I'm too LAZY to do anything about it".

When you get faulted for letting your guard down for a month, forgetting a birthday for instance, you imeediately throw out the trump card that can't be countered:"Oh.. I am so sorry i really bad with remembering birthdays". There's no scientific facts or figures that can help to prove your point, nor are there any to DISprove it. Hence, the victim just has to accept it. It's what you'd call in chinese as : JIAN.

Somehow that disgusts me, especially so today. What should I say, sudden relevation? Can't say that i'm not guilty of horrible acts that I am fervently putting down now, but at least I havent notice myself doing it recently.

A picture speaks a thousand words, what they are I do not know. What they were I am trying not to know. An unsolvable mystery to leave behind. Forward my dear, Forward.

What's today. No morning lectures, Made Scrambled Eggs and Bacon for breakfast, Skipper Japanese, Made Noodle soup Lunch, Aerodynamics Test -- Easy enough!, Structures Surgery -- Doing math, Gossip after lectures, Walk home with a horde of Singaporeans. Now it's time for Lab Report. Second one of the year, 2 more by the end of the term. OH JOY!

Despite having a little downfall, I headed down to Oxford street today and was amazingly fruitful!
First, I bought my long-soughted for checked shirt :D

pardon my highly distracting duvet cover design..

And I finally found a pair of flat boots that I was at peace with because it was at a lovely price and it was rather comfy and its black and cool :D

Only that, it's not knee high as I wanted it to be. BAH.

Being at Oxford street, one would immediately think of the brand new Pedestrian crossing they built -- Idea stolen from Japan's busy streets. It's the diagonal crossing thing. Pictures shall do the talking. Didnt bring my SLR due to the massive number of people around (in fear of it being stolen amidst the crowd), so these are coming from a Sony Cybershot at least two generations old.


Here's Marble Arch. The tube station is named after it. It's a white carrara-marble monument designed in 1828 by John Nash based on the Triumphal Arc of Constantine in Rome. It didnt originally belonged here though.


Christmas Decorations at the start of Oxford Street. Primark is just 20-30m away from this crossing junction.


Selfridges and Co. for you. If u dont know what that is, it's like a UPS departmental store with lots of UPS brands as sections :D Like Debenhams, John Lewis and Harrods!.. i think.


FCUK leh! never go in. No moolahs


Here you have the famous Diagonal crossing. They apparently got the Japanese guy down to help them with design and what not :) I say it's awesome and london should have it in more areas!

Spent about 50+pounds in one day thanks to all that shopping and chinatown goods stocking up and a good Japanese dinner at Taro. Totally a Be Good To Yourself day as Sainsbury likes it. ^^

why the sudden change of mood.

feels like a got a million pent up emotions.

I thought one week of cough was bad and that i was officially free from it! But now i caught a cold. :( Knew that'd happen the moment i woke up 4839485 times yesterday night because my back and bones were aching. When my alarm finally rang, i felt super nauseous but held it in because i dont want to end up with a cough which i sorta had but disappeared after i coughed out the pleghm(is this how u spell it).

Yesterday at BudSoc, the monk guided us through the Loving Kindness Meditation. Basically it's a type of meditation where you visualize that warmness of love and kindness towards EVERYONE, even someone you find annoying, spreading it around and passing it on-ish. Its... too abstract I realized. Let me further explain.

First stage of it is to imagine goodwill and goodness happening to yourself. You can be as selfish as you want. Basically wish yourself well and successful. Here, I was a little stump as to how to wish that. At first I went in the direction of me leading a happy life, not needing to worry. Then I thought okay, what could I be worrying about? Given my current situation, it'd be Money and Studies/Grades. So i started thinking of very materialistic things. Cars, Luxury Holidays, High paying job etc. etc. But midway, i stopped myself..

"Hey! Why such materialistic thoughts? Do i really need all those to be happy? Will they really make me happy?"

Then i thought properly and restarted.. Okay, Family well, Loved ones well, Leading a happy life in the future with my husband;) with kids and all. Everyone healthy and happy. Then i was stuck again. I dint know what else to think. But there was some time life, so I just let my mind wander off.

After a few minutes, it was the Second stage. Think of your Good friend and wish them Well. This was easy. And i knew who to think of, despite her being really far away from me.

5 minutes later, third stage. Think of someone neutral and wish them well. It was alright, too.

Fourth stage, think of someone you dont like/hate/annoys you and wish them well. This was rather easy for me really. Because instead of feelings of irritation, I had feelings of symphathy. Wondering why he/she acts that way and "made up excuses for him/her".

Then, it was time to spread your loving kindness EQUALLY amongst these three people. This was tough. I had to use alot of imagination, and i found myself being terribly skeptical. But still, I imagined it. And Still, I felt some sort of awkwardness when he asked to imagine the four of us together in a cafe having fun talking and eating.

It made me think a little. If we were supposed to train ourselves to love everyone the same, aren't we training ourselves to not show any biasness and wont it make the people you really love and love you back especially unhappy due to jealousy? But jealousy is something we ought to do away with since its a negative emotion. So being enlightened means that you dont have a special someone because if u love everyone the same, your special someone will no longer be special will it? Hmm. I'm probably thinking too much.

London's gonna be hit with 70mph winds that can cause buildings damage and uprooted trees tommorow. I wonder if it'd really happen o.o"

Lesson number one. READ THE BLOODY INSTRUCTIONS U HASTY YOUNG WOMAN!

Lesson number two. Enough of staying back in school till 11pm (when the doors lock) to do ProEngineer. WTH is wrong with us. -_-

Not going to complain about XIONG timetables.. but my tmr's schedule SUXKS.

9-10am Materials
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1-2pm Japanese
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3-4pm Structural Mechanics and Dynamics

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7pm Buddhist Society.

look at the vast number of breaks!!! and who in the right mind will wake up to go for 9am lecture ><" I think only me lah. At least tmr's dinner is already pre-cooked. Just have to prepare lunch and i'm all set. Or maybe i'll swop the order just for luck.

This week just flew by too quickly. At least i feel a sense of accomplishment with draft 2 of lab report done (have two weeks to check it. HAHA), 2 math tutorials out of the way, FINALLY finished tutorial 1 structures. Only Structures tutorial can give me and B a headache whilst solving it. Always notice small mistakes at the end that keeps affecting our results. End up .. it is always LECTURER PROVIDE WRONG ANSWER (to part 1 at least). HAHAHA. We are too powerful ;) I dint realized i missed the days we have our mugging sessions until today. Luffles.

You guys should go check this out:

A 10min clip on a movie-to-be-but-not-going-to-be.
It's called: The horribly slow murder with the extremly inefficient weapon!

http://www.linkfun.net/fun-videos/the_horribly_slow_murder_video-3144

I guess that we will eventually have to face such issues, so i'm glad i decided not to keep it in. I'm glad for this day. Thank you so much, really. I guess i'd tell you later :)

Those words resounding in my head -- i cry tears of happiness knowing now that I got it all wrong. Not that i didnt know previously, but i just forgot momentarily. I did see all the little actions, i do feel happy about it because i've never experienced it before, no not in the past at all. It's enough.. but its human nature to want more. but i know it's enough, so dont be too hard on oneself.

London is sickeningly cold today. Or should i say depressingly. Just had to be the day when I decide to have a more feminine image and wear a dress and stockings. Thanks to daylight savings, the days are increasingly shorter. It caused one of my ultimate ロマンチク plan to go down in the drain. Lucky for me, an alternative was avaliable. ^^ Back to the point where days are shorter, it's becoming so sad here that i just want to go home after lectures. As how one of my coursemates put it:"It's dark and lonely. I NEED to go home."

Nothing much really. apart from I just had an awesome Thai dinner with my awesome someone. If you're in london and willing to spend about 12.50pounds per person (including cocktail, otherwise 10pounds should do the job) you could try that thai restaurant (i dont know whats it called) at South Kensington, corner of the street after crossing Cromwell road from Imperial. Nice and hot green curry :D One of the most authentic i've tasted here.

Gotta go do accountings properly now. Meh. The daddy-Auditor beckons.

Aero Engineers dinner!
All four years in one photo :) Not everyone was there but.. a large enough proportion nonetheless..



On the same day I had M and D's birthday celebration at Goldmine, Bayswater. Waaa. Not good having S on the table. He starts by eating at somebody else's plate! Throughout the whole dinner it felt like it was a battlefield. Grab the good stuff whilst it lasts!! Even have to chiong for rice refill otherwise u wont get a second helping. haha. Stressful!!

Yesterday's dinner at No10 restaurant. I felt like the only under-dressed person there because out of evryone in that photo, only me and HH are non-scholars who didnt attend SingSem (a highly elitist scholar seminar and gathering event) but because our housemates love us so much we got invited to dinner :D



Haha. seems like i've been taking lots of mega group photos recently. Still got one from yesterday when we celebrated R's birthday in our flat :) Quite glad it turned out alright in the end despite the last minute changes.

And superbly glad that today went well and that you liked the surprise! heee.

Big hole in the pocket at the start of the month! eeek.

YOU are weaks.
YOU stop feeling so stressed.
YOU cant even handle such things how on earth are you going to survive in the working world?
YOU are noobs.
YOU stop brooding over the past.
YOU stop breaking down over little things.
YOU need to be strong.
YOU just need a awesome hiking boots.
YOU just want to run away and hide.
YOU will lose your friends.
YOU dont have friends who care.
YOU are just a phantom.
YOU have no good friends here.
YOU are weaks.

slash end.

Now we have council tax to worry about. Bloody useless agent. I cant believe i got home nearly 7pm when i had only Jap class today. Why on earth did we have to stay in school discussing this fucking project for so long only to bounce back to square one. All that effort gone to waste. I hate this feeling.

Wow, thanks lah. That was SO encouraging. You've no idea how much pain that added to my inner turmoil.
Just trying to stay sane, remain in one piece, not break down like the traffic light which crumbled due to an accident.

A major accident occurred today along cromwell road, which if u know, i'm facing. So i had to tell police officers where i stay and be escorted to my door step because my flat was within the cordoned area o.O"
I went to take a look being kaypoh, and saw that it wasnt that major to the extent that there's a need to block off the entire road for about 200m :O Considering it's a major road, that would've caused great inconvenience to many drivers. But anyway, the scene looks vaguely like this:

Dead street with sparse number of pedestrians walking along the pavement. Tonnes of police officers waiving off traffic and diverting pedestrians to the pavement opposite my apartment. As i approached the scene from the back alley, on the way to sainsburys, i saw a car, not terribly damaged lying 50m away from a traffic light all smashed up, lying horizontally on the street. The concrete foundations which held it in all broken into debris, leaving a slightly deep hole in the ground. A few pieces of Clothing were strewn all over the road. Curious passerbys slow their pace to take in what might have happened...

Wonder why i didnt take a photo. But i suppose it might be on the news?

Such a scenario immediately brought up the competitiveness in me. I compared the efficiency to Singapore. Compared the methods and steps taken. No prizes for guessing who won in my heart.

The car is really sturdy! Wonder what make is it..

It's back to a mountain of work. This place has degraded to random rants. It needs pictures. I just seem to lazy to do anything with the pictures I take these days. Well, at least it helps me off-load.

Have been hearing lots of "horror stories" from all over. Not literally, horror-horror, but terrible things about the future!

1. Housing
The SHADY agent ie. OUR agent. M has been gathering alot of information from Seniors or previous occupants about how this agent "conned" their money or put them into tough spots, making them pay a sum of money.

For instance, he made a group of students pay 250 pounds for the inventory checklist whilst they were checking out of the flat. The thing to do to counter this is to type out / print your own inventory list for the sake of saving that sum of money.
Second thing, if it's not stated in ur contract, u definitely wont get it. This is quite a DUH thing and i guess the seniors werent as careful as we were :P
Dirty carpet floors / cracked walls.. u better get it fixed or he'll charge u a huge sum for it =.=" Luckily i took a bunch of photos on the day of arrival.

2. Second Year
After having a enjoyable? too-hardworking? first year which enabled me to get the prize money, second year seems pretty daunting.

Not just seniors or even peers from other engineering faculty (which are usually slightly unreliable), my personal tutor just told us all today that YEAR TWO IS GOING TO BE TOUGH. Can't say i didnt expect that, since this is afterall Imperial College, and Year1 is usually always honeymoon year. They treat you nicely since you are fresh noobs into the university system where much more independent work is needed. Second year, they expect you to be wiser and worldly, hence able to handle all sorts of shit thrown at you.

Eg. This is the first time i got a Computing coursework for a course which sounds totally unrelated to computing -- Structural mechanics and Dynamics. :O I even have to do a report for it in a very detailed manner, but at least Pin.ho was kind enough to type out templates for both the Fortran programme and the report. ^^ *is spoon-fed*

In addition, first "homework" we get is a group coursework designing a wind turbine blade given bare minimum information -- GO LOOK UP THE WEB OR BOOKS! I'm sure u can find something :D *walks out of LT* -ish lectures. Well, i'm exaggerating a little. But, i officially LOVE MY GROUP :D Efficiency at its best. Hopefully we are moving in the correct direction. Feeling slightly stressed that I'm not contributing much though, since i'm not making any breakthrough unlike the others in ProE, Lift/Drag calculations, XFOIL :( Don't wanna be the one doing the poster erghk.

Have no time to work on Salisbury pictures AHHHHH.
Surfing the internet is evil. I am glad, slightly, that i dont get good internet in my house, yet. Because i'll then be made to do work or slack instead of wasting my time watching mindless videos on facebook. ><"

~wants high boots which are flat NOW. I actually managed to shop a little just now after a satisfying and filling dinner at ChaChaMoon! Good times! Gonna be seeing Lizzie's place this saturday. O boy o boy i cant wait!

Fuck la. Simple things also cant do. What noobs. Ask u settle also take forever to do it. Got the whole day to do but still, it's not settled. And if your way doesnt work, then do it another way la! Not that distance is a matter with our location. Instead of solving the problem, you let your selfish wants take precedence. I totally don't sense your sense of urgency. What have you done on your part man. I don't suppose you see how much I've done and you keep complaining about me throwing work at you like a slave driver. If i dont, then i'd be doing everything because there is zero initiative on your side. Everything so Kaopeh. Continue on like this i'm going to regret my decision even more. Why did I even make this choice to begin with.. Perhaps I saw your merits, but as time goes by, your faults are growing like bacteria in the sewers.

Suddenly I feel like i've lost my home ground.

At least I know there's one other place for me to turn to in times like this.

Not talking about who you'd think I am talking about.



Dachau Concentration Camp, Museum

I cant use the internet in my room.
Have lots of really dirty sofas around that have space only in my room.
Need a bookshelf to start unpacking the mugger things but argos just dont stock some things we need delivered. ERGH
The boiler makes tonnes of noise and it's next to my head.
Have to find a broom somehow. I need to Ship my whole country over.
Need extension cord for our freezer to work.
Need a better internet service :(
Not in the mood to cook because it'll just means cleaning up!
Have to dispose of garbage. But hates the fact that garbage pick up days are only tues wed fri. wtf? Cant they be more efficient..
Am really tired of unpacking and running back and forth to find the housing agent because the bloody partition is not up.

Have u ever heard of "NOT Having Locks in the toilet is Perfectly fine? Because you're all friends?"

I cant stand the agent. Total NATO.

But at least i got a luxurious double bed.
Huge room.
Lots of left-behind-crockeries
Lovely housemates, well, mostly.
...

I think it's more of the double bed and space that is making me happy.
And the fact that it's wooden floor not carpet erghh like chamberlain-aka-HDB-alotalot-of-singaporeans-and-malaysians

oh fug, we're on 2nd floor. Which is 3rd floor in singapore terms. Without a lift. uneven steps stairs.

Okay i feel better ranting. There's more. But. Some people read this, so i'll just have to make do. :)

NOOO I DUN WAN SCHOOL TO START!!!!!!

oh and since when was i on the waiting list for jap course. ERGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. sigh.

Have 2.5gigs worth of photos to edit. Good Game.

"All along i've only been able to reach a high E, but today, it was a high F or even F#!"

On another note(;D),

Next time when you've reached an age where people will worry for ur health/safety because you're either slower to react / poor in health / have a physical ability, please learn to use vocabulary which will not scare ur kids / people who take care of you.

eg. a few moments ago,

mum:" TING! 救命！"
mum:" XIIIAANNNGGG!  救命！快！"
us:" *runs out of room* what?"
mum:" THIS COMPUTER CANNOT USE WORD AH!"
us: -________- DIAOOOOO.

It's time to bring it back to life! With a lively photo!

This is part of a series of photographs taken at my cousin's newly furbished house somewhere in Lentor. We hired a professional photographer to take family photos for us :) It was great fun helping people dress up and getting dressed up by others ^^ And of course, looking at how everyone looks mightily different with make up and all on :D Despite the fun, it was a tiring process. More photos on facebook but i shall be nice and place some here ^^

Brainless, no skill, retarded games just keeps getting to me. XD It's not plenty of fun but it's addictive once you start somehow. Psychology of such games. It probably spurred the competitiveness within me, wanting to complete the game despite the lack of a story. More like, wanting to know what the game has to offer in the next level :P

First it was Plants Vs Zombies. Thanks to KS for intro-ing the game after exams ended -_-"



Then my cousin caught me one day and gave me Sally's Spa:



Idea's about the same. Zombie's more about Resource management, whilst Sally's Spa is about multitasking and micromanaging. I am SO wasting my life away ><" Plan to study Jap / Statistics before term begins is totally failing :P At least i'm accomplishing fun things to do in Singapore and good food to eat before going back XD Havent even thought about Packing my luggage omg. Still need to go KL in two weeks time. busy busy!



Got together with a handful of imperial people. Mainly those that helped me settle down. Pity not everyone could make it.. wx ma! :( We celebrated HH's birthday but it was a totally inauspicious date do that because it was the 15th of the seventh month. hahaha. Ohwell! no one has done any kui xin shi, so we should be fine :)

Instead of the 101 things I would like to do in 1001 that limin has done, i'd rather make a list of what i have done! :P

-tasted all the singapore food I have craved for 9 months
-went to the night safari
-went swimming
-went rollerblading
-watched 3 movies
-meet up with 6R, cckss colleagues, zion colleagues, valNyun, GabeNdarioNsean, other random friends
-went to JB with aunt
-went to sub courts
-sang jap ktv (a couple of times.. now waiting for cheena KTV with wx)
-played board games
-went to Natsu Matsuri, Cosfest
-visit Chem Teacher's House
-Went back to RJC
-Shopped for non-Tees clothings
-BudSoc outing in Singapore
-Completed watching NANA, Mr Brain, TopGear season 12
-PSP-ed / Monsterhunt (ongoing)
-Stayovers
-secret mission
-top secret mission
-play L4D, Battlefield
-Try Swensen's Ice cream buffet

Things left to accomplish:
-Night cycling
-IT fair
-rock climbing/ice skating/rollerblade one more time!
-pack luggage
-visit Physics Tuition teacher
-take family photo
-Chinatown KTV
-top secret mission
-eat crab one more time!
-eat kuishinbo! T_T

Lol. Should be all i guess. eeyer. shall go back to watching Numb3rs. Sorry for this unexciting post :P But i highly recc you to play plants vs zombies :D:D:D

Many people think that we first experience an emotion, then  we may or may not show it on our faces. ie. the face is our secondary billboard for our internal feelings. But research has shown that emotion can start from the face!

so if you're having a rough day, or feeling sad, put a pen into your mouth holding it with your teeth! That way you're forced to smile and you'll feel better i guess :)

i didnt wanted to cry. I was trying to hold it in. but there wasnt sufficient time for me to counsel myself internally to get rid of that anger. Thank you though, it meant alot to me. It told me that I could lean on you (:

- adapted from Blink, Malcolm Gladwell.

Alex's "farewell" dinner, without jiaqi :(

And... this!